Happy New Year 2018

2018, Happy New Year Bloggers and those visiting my blog. It that time to start fresh, set new goals,  re-new old ones and leave the bad times behind and focus on the future ahead. You can say 2017 was a crazy time if you’ve been paying attention to the news.

For me, try to always improve on the goals I set the previous year and add something to  it to make it a little challenging. I do have bigger goals, but with my current situation, I don’t list them. It would be just easier to focus my energy on those that are within reach.

1.Reading, read 12 books last year so I will make it my goal to read 20. Any suggestions on “must” read books?

2. Health is always important to me and should be for everyone. Last year my goal was just not to gain weight. Well I lost some weight,still don’t see it physically, but been told by one lady at the gym that I’ve lost weight. I will try to stay at my new current weight which is 271 lbs.

3. For 2018 one goal I would like to work on is being more social. Not easy when you are jobless and don’t have a car, but I will try to make an effort.


Daily Prompt: Conversation

“A Good conversation is like a miniskirt; short enough to retain interest, but long enough to cover the subject.”

If there something that I need some improvement in is my ability to communicate with people face to face. To be able to have an interesting conversation with someone. Am sure everyone could work on there face to face conversation skills since most of us are glued to our cell phones and to social media.

I don’t mind having a conversation with strangers when I walk around town or sitting at Starbucks.  Well I do try to avoid the religious, crazy looking people, but they seem to find me when am at Starbucks, waiting for the bus or on the bus. I think am a magnetic for people like that, but that a whole another story.  Having a face to face conversation is a challenge for me, especially among friends.  No, am not anti-social, it just what do you talk about?  These days you have to be careful what topic of conversation you bring up because you just don’t know how people will react. They might get offended or might not want to associate with you because of your opinions.  You can go with the basic conversation like how was your day? What did you do this weekend? but that can get boring. What do you ask the next time you see that person? It can make you sound like a broken record.

How do you keep your conversation interesting when talking with friends and people?

Good-Bye 2017 : Review

Books I read in 2017. If I had to pick one book you should read, it would be Beartown.   Great way to start a conversation about a certain topic we have seen on the news.  Especially if you have kids/teenagers and not sure how to talk to them about this certain topic.  This might be a way to break the ice.

1. The Alliance by Jolina Petersheim

2. Devil’s Cold Dish by Eleanor Kuhns

3. What so proudly we hailed by Marc Leepson

4. Death on the Sappire by R.J.Koreto

5. Death among Rubies by R.J. Koreto

6. The German Girl by Lucas Correa

7. Alice & the Assassin by R.J. Koreto

8. Swimming Lesson by Claire Fuller

9. The Stairs are Fire by Anita Shreve

10. Beartown by Fredrik Backman

11.The Dirty Book Club by Lisa Harrison

Health, I started 2017 weighing 281 lbs and now am down to about 270 lbs.  Am always unsure whether to trust the weight scale.  It kind of like the media, should you trust them on what they are reporting.  My digital scales at home says I weight 276 lbs, but then the gym weight scales say some different.  It one of those old school weight scale. For now I go with what the old school weight scale says. My goal for 2017 was just to maintain my weight and not gain weight.  I figure why make it a goal to lose weight and then not lose weight and be disappointment.  It would just be better keep working out and just watch what I eat and hopefully I’ll will loose it.

My finding employment situation, well we can just skip that.  Why focus on the negative side?

Still keeping up my hobbies.  Drawing, watercoloring, journaling, film photography.  Only thing I wish I had a table in my room where I could do all my artistic stuff.  My room is to small so I have on so I have to sit down on the floor and do all my art stuff.

Book #11 The Dirty Book Club

The Dirty Book Club by Lisa Harrison. I think the title speak for it self, but it not all about that. Yes there same R part in there, but I would say it more about character M.J Stark finding herself.  M.J Stark a successful career women, a doctor boyfriend, but has some personal struggles dealing with loneliness. M.J. take a chance to give something a try that she her self knows might not be for her.  She along with other women, they learn how it important to have friends in your life that you can trust and count on during difficult time. For M.J. it struggling to decided what she want personally. She want to live the city life, but then she want to have a life with her boyfriend who also has his own wants. Doesn’t want to stay in a small beach town, but then doesn’t want to leave the women who she calls friends.

Her face


Her face, a face I’ll never forget.

A friendly face, she speaks with a calm voice

and has unforgettable smile.

A smile that will bring a smile on your face too.

She has a light glow when she laughs.

That imagine never leaves my mind.

*Just something that came to my head*

am I curse?

Is there such a thing as being curse with bad luck with finding a job?  No matter what you do or how much you try to change your approach in finding a job, you’ll never find one nor get a job.  As my journey continues with looking for employment maybe I just one of those individual that will never find a job.  Are some people just unemployable?  Their skills, experiences, education, maybe their personality just doesn’t fit into the job labor force. Are employers being to picky with who they hire? It all about finding that employee that fit into their company 100% or at least close to it.

Maybe my resume is one of those odd looking resume employer don’t understand and get the wrong impressions.  My job have been in the educational field to the technical web savvy field with a little retail in between.  Doesn’t make a good attractive resume? Jumping around from one area to another plus have a degree in sociology doesn’t help at all.  Gives the impression I don’t know what I want to do career wise.
*my job experience on my resume. I can’t fit everything so I left the small detail like month and cities*
Pearson, Professional Scorer(this is always hard to explain)                                                                                                                                                                                         2011 – 2017
  •  Analyzed students responses if they answered prompt essay and score their response.
  • Remained neutral bias in reading student’s opinions and religious beliefs.
Northeast Independent School District, Substitute Teacher
                                                                                                                    2011 – 2015
  • Implemented teacher’s lesson plans awhile having the ability to improvise and be flexible when necessary.
  • Determined appropriate consequences for inappropriate student behavior and write a report for the teacher about class events.
  • Maintained effective classroom management strategies and applied advance teaching capabilities in all subject areas.
University of Texas at Austin, Undergraduate teacher assistant
                                                                                                                      2006 – 2008
  • Provided technical support to 30+ students learning about web applications during office hours via instant messenger or email.
  • Communicated effectively to non-technical students on debugging HTML and CSS code via instant messenger.
  • Worked with teaching faculty to aid in proctoring exams
The University of Texas at Austin
Bachelor of Arts in Sociology

Inktober 2017

Inktober came and went.  With so much on my mind, I was only able to get half way.  This year I decide to challenge myself a little bit more.  Instead of using your regular ink pen/markers, I decided to use a dip pen and the Higgin black magic ink. I also used a old sketchbook I had laying around my room.  Haven’t used it since high school and I didn’t have money to buy a sketchbook that didn’t bleed when using ink.  The paper did hold up except when there was to much ink on the nib and drip on the paper.

Drawing in ink is intimidating because you have to know what you are going to do.  Are you going to draw a straight line, a circle or maybe a curve?  If you aren’t certain you can’t afford to miss up cause can’t erase it, you can keep going or start over on another page.

Book # 10: Beartown

This is my second book that I’ve read by author Fredrik Backman, Beartown.  The other book I read was My grandmother asked me to tell you she’s sorry.  Beartown is a small town whose community care about there passion for hockey and their junior ice hockey team.  Competing in the national semifinals  game has a lot at stake for the town and for it best player Kevin.  For Kevin this is an opportunity to leave a small town and go pro.  For the town its a chance to be recognize again as the best hockey town and to bring attention to the town.

With so much pressure on the shoulder of one player is to much to bear for a teenager. It a chain reaction that lead up to a violent act on a younger girl. An act that turns the town against the young girl and their only interest is what best for the town and hockey.

Daily Prompt: Mystery


Mystery, living life is a mystery or maybe am the mystery living within a mystery I have yet to finger out.  I have yet to notice the clues left behind to solve these two mysteries.  Ever since I started college till now I’ve had many questions to why things have happened to me.  I don’t mean bad things, just the struggles to move through life.  What is it about me that am struggling so much?  First it was struggling to get through college, now am struggling to find a job, struggling to move on with my life.  I know life isn’t suppose to be easy, but there just something am not understanding.  Is there something I am not seeing about myself that will help me solve the mystery that will lead to living within this”mystery life”? I do know this, am no Sherlock Holmes and if I do solve this mystery, it will be on my own.