I’ve been keeping a journal for about 3 years now. Why do I keep a journal? It feel relieving to just let whatever you have on your mind and just put it on paper and… More
Well I haven’t blog about my progress in drawing lately. It been 4 years since I started drawing again. It funny looking at my first sketchbook and seeing all the portrait drawings I did and compare it to the ones I’ve done lately. You can actually see the progress and the more likeness to the actually person. Am still trying to improve in my shading and trying to draw different portrait angels. There are still area I haven’t experimented in such as drawing white hair or facial hair. Drawing people of darker skin color and faces of older people that have much more facial details.
All of my drawings are were done awhile sitting on the floor. I don’t have desk in my room and don’t like being in area where people are passing by. Plus I do a lot of my drawing at night when everyone else in the house is asleep.
When I first started drawing 4 years ago.
Drawings I did just a month or so ago.
After two weeks and two day, I decided to quit my job working at Subway. Not because I didn’t like it, but I wasn’t getting enough hours. When you are only getting a few hours and the pay is only $8.oo/hr that is not enough to live on, pay the bills, and just to get by. The manager was only giving me about 13 hours a week and when I look at the upcoming schedule he only assigned me 5 hours for the whole week. I already mention to him that I wanted more hours and his response was to only get more hours was to pick-up shift when people call in. At the same time he had hire someone else just a few days after hiring me. That person is receiving more hours then me.
Now, I felt I was doing okay and learning as fast as I could, but when you only have me coming in two day out of the week, it going to take me awhile to learn the ropes and get comfortable doing them.
This week I was hired at fast-food restaurants as a part-time employee. It is not the job I would have want because it pay low, $8/hr. Am thankful that the manager hired me and willing to take the time to train me. Am really not sure why he hired, but during my job hunt this past month I decide to do something different on my job applications. I started to not, not put down that I have a Bachelor degree unless it a requirement for the job position. Weather he would have hire me if he had known I have a bachelor degree, I don’t know. Just seems odds when I made that change, I get called for a interview and hire.
So far I’ve only work two days for four or five hours. It be interesting and a lot of information to take it. Actually it just feels weird even though it a straight forward job. I have met some of the other workers and they all seem okay except for one that I met on my second day. When she walk in I just got this bad vibe from her. She didn’t take 10 second just to introduce her self or just a say “hi”. She seems very bossing and “bitchy”. When I was finishing with the last customer I could hear her complaining to the manager how am doing things wrong. All I did was just say “sorry” toward her so she know I could hear her. I sure the manage pick up on my tone of voice, but I really want to tell her, “instead of complaining what am doing wrong, maybe help me out and just show me.”
Well will see how things go. Hoping I”ll stay there for awhile and just see what direction I should take in finding a better paying job. Am still in the process in volunteering somewhere to gain some much need experience.
I haven’t been blogging much cause my attention has been finding employment which I haven’t found nor has any employer that I’ve submitted an application is willing to hire me. I was working with the alamo workforce in hoping I can get some job training, but after a good solid 3 months I felt they were stalling in helping me get that job training. So I terminated the partnership. At the moment I with a temp agency, but I think this partnership will also go south just cause I lack work experience.
I thought about volunteering somewhere and a week or two ago put in a application at one of the local museums. I don’t approve that people should have to volunteer just to get work experience. I’ve done volunteering in the past, but it never work out. My only reason for doing it now is that I don’t know what else to do to just get a hired. So will see what happens with volunteering.
Why do people say, “I thought I knew you” or ” I can’t believe you support X and Y.” They will continue on to describe you on how they thought you were, but really never took time to know you on a one-to-one level. I’ve had several people who I know from my college years tell me this after reading or me giving them my opinion on a political and current issues going on. In this day of age, is it fair to say, to know someone well you need to know their political views?
It interesting on how people will re-judge your character once they learn about your political view or where you stand on a certain issue. I feel am still the same person I was 10 years ago, just that I didn’t voice my opinion and no one ask about it. People have a different ways of thinking of things. Take a look at Kenya West and how people just hated on him for it. Questioning his character and that he was crazy.
One of the issues where my views differ then my friends is this whole illegal immigration and separating the parents from their children. I don’t agree with separating them, but they did break the law. In any other case where an american citizen broke the law and were being sent to jail, they too would be separated from their children. Right? I sure this applies to any other democratic nation that are governed by laws. If you are a single parent and you broke the law and going to jail, if there no other relatives to care for that child, that child is put into a foster care or a child protective agency. Am not here to debate just want to give an example.
Anyone else been through this with friends? How do you feel about it?
To all the Dads out there, Happy Father Day!
Am not a father, unless you count being a father to two female dogs. Their names are Lilly and Lady Bug. Am just a single guy that at the current time doesn’t see fatherhood in his future anytime soon. It does leave me to wonder what kind of father I would be. Would I been the strict dad, especially when it come to having a daughter(s). The type of the dad that will say no dating until you’re 18 and will ask all the W’s, who, where, When, What, and Why questions when the teenage daughter goes out. Will I be more a down to earth father that has that open communication with his kid. Where they can speak or ask any questions or concerns. They don’t always have to go to mom or a friend to speak about something. Just makes me wonder.
Enthusiasm, energy, I could use some advice, opinions on this subject. So let me first explain the situation. Well let me tell you a little about myself. I would describe myself as clam, down to earth individual. I don’t say much unless am talking about something am interested in. You can just say that am an introvert kind of a person.
Now I’ve been applying to jobs here and there. I’ve interviewed with this one company four time for different positions. Two of them dealt with customer service and working the phone and the others dealt with content moderation. The last interview the person who set-up the interview told me the company wouldn’t move forward with me because I have ” no energy” plus lack of customer service experience. The customer service I get, but the “no energy” am just not sure what to make about it. Have any of you ever been told or told someone that they displayed “no energy” show lack of enthusiasm?
Am not sure how to process that. Am really not a outspoken individual. I go to these job interviews, yes am nervous, but am also clam. Maybe my voice doesn’t project with high energy. It hard to try to be something that you are not.
I found this one article online that best explain my situation am in a little bit better.
Observe, I do this a lot. No matter where am at, I just like watching what around me. It even more interesting when you are out in public and just observing people. The most common thing I’ll see are people glue to their cell phone. Looking down at their screen and not even being aware of their surroundings. The most recent thing I’ve notice about people are what they wear in public. I really believe that some females leave their home without looking in the mirror. Am all for dressing comfortably in hot weather, but you should make sure your not showing to much. Especially if you are going to the gym.
You can also record what you observe either by writing or like me and others through photography or drawing. I recently started doing urban sketching. Taking a sketchbook with me and just pick a spot in the downtown area and draw what I see. You can do this when visiting your favorite coffee shop.
I usually don’t talk about being an introvert. For one, it really doesn’t matter to me. I am who I am and I can’t change that. No, I am not anti-social, in fact I love meeting people and hanging out. Yes I do prefer to be alone, sometime, and usually don’t have too much to talk about. Am shy, clam, and reserve, but it just depends on the situation.
Job Interviewing would be one of those situations where I think my introvert personality can be effecting the interviewer decision whether to hire me or not. For one, when I speak in a calm tone during an interview. I don’t show too much enthusiasm or excitement for the position or for the question being asked. Especially for questions that ask you for details how you handle or dealt with a situation. Am sorry, I am not a great story-teller so my answers are just simple. Which I think can be mistaken that am not interested in the position and can’t I handle the job duties required.
If there is one skill that I feel inchoate, it writing. I will admit my writing is rudimentary and probably never meet the standards if I was to apply for a writers job. Would you hire me to write for you magazine or news website? Writing has always been in my shadow, haunting me. From my days in college and probably in the work place. Recently, I had to take a assessment for a job position and part of that assessment was to replace one word in a sentence that would change how the sentence sounded. That is why I have this blog. To practice my writing and hopefully improve.