2018 Journal

I’ve been keeping a journal for about 3 years now.  Why do I keep a journal? It feel relieving to just let whatever you have on your mind and just put it on paper and leave it there. Not only do I just write, but also doodle, draw and watercolor when I have nothing to write. What do I use for my journal? I don’t use a regular notebook that most of us used to keep notes in school.  For my journal in 2018, I used a general sketchbook that I found I my local hobby lobby store that was within my tight budget.  It a hard cover and at least able to handle light watercolor washes.

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Happy New Years 2019

Happy New Years!!!

2019 is here and am not sure where to begin with this post. My goal to finding a job still hasn’t change.  It mind blogging that I can get a short temporary job, but can’t seem to find one that is stable.  As we were saying good-bye to 2018, I was temporary working at Macy’s. It not my first time working there during the holidays, but I wonder why do I get hired temporary for a position using the same resume with the same job history, but can’t get hired for something full or part-time. Am not trying to be negative here, but now we are in a new year it something I trying to understand.  I will just mention that retail, dealing with clothes, standing and walking for a long period of time is something I don’t like doing.

For 2019 I really don’t have any goals in mind or looking forward to accomplish anything. I’ll keep my usually routine of just going to the gym, doing my walks around downtown, journaling, keep working on my art / drawing, and my film-photography.  Will be doing a post on journaling soon and in my other blog, my photography will be posting there to. Yes, finally able to send some rolls of film to get developed.

Volunteering

Volunteering, it great that people do this to help a cause or something they have a passion for. What I don’t agree about volunteering is having to do it just to get work related experience.  With that said, sometime at the end of October I decided to volunteer at the center library.  I decide to volunteer, because my job hunt to find a job isn’t leading to any job offers. Why the library? Well it that was my second option and my first option was a museum.  When museum received my background check the volunteer position I had discussed with the volunteer coordinator was already filled.  They had another position but i wasn’t interest in.  So I decide to volunteer at the library. Honestly I don’t know what I will get out of it cause getting a job there is very competitive.  I convince myself, what do I have to loose except two hours of my time. So for that past month I volunteer one day out of the week for two hours at the library.

So far the duties I’v done are pulling books off the shelves that the computer system has listed missing and are going to be “retired”. These retired books are removed from the system and sent to the library store where the public may buy them for a few cents or a dollar.  I think they also give them out to schools or organization in need of books, but not to sure about that. The other task I’ve done is checking each service desk has the supply they need like pens, pencil and small scrap paper.

Its been 4 years.

Well I haven’t blog about my progress in drawing lately.  It been 4 years since I started drawing again. It funny looking at my first sketchbook and seeing all the portrait drawings I did and compare it to the ones I’ve done lately. You can actually see the progress and the more likeness to the actually person. Am still trying to improve in my shading and trying to draw different portrait angels. There are still area I haven’t experimented in such as drawing white hair or facial hair. Drawing people of darker skin color and faces of older people that have much more facial details.

All of my drawings are were done awhile sitting on the floor.  I don’t have desk in my room and don’t like being in area where people are passing by. Plus I do a lot of my drawing at night when everyone else in the house is asleep.

When I first started drawing 4 years ago.

Drawings I did just a month or so ago.

two week laters…

 

After two weeks and two day, I decided to quit my job working at Subway. Not because I didn’t like it, but I wasn’t getting enough hours. When you are only getting a few hours and the pay is only $8.oo/hr that is not enough to live on, pay the bills, and just to get by.  The manager was only giving me about 13 hours a week and when I look at the upcoming schedule he only assigned me 5 hours for the whole week.  I already mention to him that I wanted more hours and his response was to only get more hours was to pick-up shift when people call in. At the same time he had hire someone else just a few days after hiring me. That person is receiving more hours then me.

Now, I felt I was doing okay and learning as fast as I could, but when you only have me coming in two day out of the week, it going to take me awhile to learn the ropes and get comfortable doing them.

A much need break

This week I was hired at fast-food restaurants as a part-time employee.  It is not the job I would have want because it pay low, $8/hr.  Am thankful that the manager hired me and willing to take the time to train me. Am really not sure why he hired, but during my job hunt this past month I decide to do something different on my job applications.  I started to not, not put down that I have a Bachelor degree unless it a requirement for the job position. Weather he would have hire me if he had known I have a bachelor degree, I don’t know. Just seems odds when I made that change, I get called for a interview and hire.

So far I’ve only work two days for four or five hours.  It be interesting and a lot of information to take it.  Actually it just feels weird even though it a straight forward job. I have met some of the other workers and they all seem okay except for one that I met on my second day.  When she walk in I just got this bad vibe from her. She didn’t take 10 second just to introduce her self or just a say “hi”. She seems very bossing and “bitchy”. When I was finishing with the last customer I could hear her complaining to the manager how am doing things wrong.  All I did was just say “sorry” toward her so she know I could hear her.  I sure the manage pick up on my tone of voice, but I really want to tell her, “instead of complaining what am doing wrong, maybe help me out and just show me.”

Well will see how things go. Hoping I”ll stay there for awhile and just see what direction I should take in finding a better paying job.  Am still in the process in volunteering somewhere to gain some much need experience.

Why I’ve been MIA

I haven’t been blogging much cause my attention has been finding employment which I haven’t found nor has any employer that I’ve submitted an application is willing to hire me.  I was working with the alamo workforce in hoping I can get some job training, but after a good solid 3 months I felt they were stalling in helping me get that job training.  So I terminated the partnership.  At the moment I with a temp agency, but I think this partnership will also go south just cause I lack work experience.

I thought about volunteering somewhere and a week or two ago put in a application at one of the local museums. I don’t approve that people should have to volunteer just to get work experience. I’ve done volunteering in the past, but it never work out.  My only reason for doing it now is that I don’t know what else to do to just get a hired.  So will see what happens with volunteering.

 

Friends and politics

Why do people say, “I thought I knew you” or ” I can’t believe you support X and Y.” They will continue on to describe you on how they thought you were, but really never took time to know you on a one-to-one level.  I’ve had several people who I know from my college years tell me this after reading or me giving them my opinion on a political and current issues going on. In this day of age, is it fair to say, to know someone well you need to know their political views?

It interesting on how people will re-judge your character once they learn about your political view or where you stand on a certain issue. I feel am still the same person I was 10 years ago, just that I didn’t voice my opinion and no one ask about it. People have a different ways of thinking of things. Take a look at Kenya West and how people just hated on him for it. Questioning his character and that he was crazy.

One of the issues where my views differ then my friends is this whole illegal immigration and separating the parents from their children. I don’t agree with separating them, but they did break the law. In any other case where an american citizen broke the law and were being sent to jail, they too would be separated from their children. Right? I sure this applies to any other democratic nation that are governed by laws. If you are a single parent and you broke the law and going to jail, if there no other relatives to care for that child, that child is put into a foster care or a child protective agency. Am not here to debate just want to give an example.

Anyone else been through this with friends? How do you feel about it?

Happy Father Day

To all the Dads out there, Happy Father Day!

Am not a father, unless you count being a father to two female dogs.  Their names are Lilly and Lady Bug. Am just a single guy that at the current time doesn’t see fatherhood in his future anytime soon. It does leave me to wonder what kind of father I would be.  Would I been the strict dad, especially when it come to having a daughter(s).  The type of the dad that will say no dating until you’re 18 and will ask all the W’s, who, where, When, What, and Why questions when the teenage daughter goes out.  Will I be more a down to earth father that has that open communication with his kid.  Where they can speak or ask any questions or concerns.  They don’t always have to go to mom or a friend to speak about something. Just makes me wonder.

Enthusiasm

Enthusiasm, energy, I could use some advice, opinions on this subject.  So let me first explain the situation. Well let me tell you a little about myself.  I would describe myself as clam, down to earth individual. I don’t say much unless am talking about something am interested in.  You can just say that am an introvert kind of a person.

Now I’ve been applying to jobs here and there.  I’ve interviewed with this one company four time for different positions. Two of them dealt with customer service and working the phone and the others dealt with content moderation. The last interview the person who set-up the interview told me the company wouldn’t move forward with me because I have ” no energy” plus lack of customer service experience. The customer service I get, but the “no energy” am just not sure what to make about it. Have any of you ever been told or told someone that they displayed “no energy” show lack of enthusiasm?

Am not sure how to process that. Am really not a outspoken individual.  I go to these job interviews, yes am nervous, but am also clam. Maybe my voice doesn’t project with high energy. It hard to try to be something that you are not.

I found this one article online that best explain my situation am in a little bit better.

https://www.thelawyerwhisperer.com/question/an-interview-how-to-for-introverts/

Thanks:)