May 1, 2021

May 1, 2021, just strange that we are already in the month of May.  Even stranger is a year ago the month of May was different then it is today.   Last year, around this time we were still reacting to this pandemic. Society was shutting down.  We still didn’t know what we were dealing with or how to treat it.   Reflecting back, I felt that we would never move forward.  Time was at a stand still and we would still be trying to figure out how to defect this virus.  Today society is moving out of this dark cloud that hover over us for awhile.  With the development of these vaccine, society is returning to normal. Kids are returning to school, there a lot more traffic as people begin to eat out and move about.  In other parts of the globe, people are still facing death that this virus brings.  Cities and town are still in lock downs. Hopefully the rest of world will start sending resources in helping those countries, cities and towns this virus still has a tight grip on.

Covid-19 pandemic Journal

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Another journal full. This is my Covid-19 pandemic journal that I started last year in March. Have a lot of written entries and few art work here and there. I would say this journal kept me mentally in check and from going crazy. Not being able to interact with people and being stuck at home the majority of the time. It will be interest to look back at this journal in a year or two from now and read what I wrote down.

The one thing I wish I could have done with my journal is add newspaper clippings. I remember asking a family member if they could buy me the newspaper because of the launch of space X in May 2020. I wanted it just to haven cause it now part of history. Every store they went to didn’t sale the newspaper. That the sad part about everything being online and something the younger generation are missing. Clipping newspaper articles of important events. I old newspapers of 9/11, the begin of the gulf war in the 90s.

Did you keep a journal during the covid19?

Receiving Gratitude

Receiving Gratitude! About two week ago I received my stimulus checks from Uncle Sam or from China Biden. Many Americans did and if they have children received a bigger stimulus check. That weekend, Saturday, my mom and I went to the grocery store to buy food for the week and my lunch for work. Of course I also buy my dog her dog food and doggy treats. My mom and I routine when buying grocery is we go half and half on paying. Other times, I’ll pay for it all, now that am working full-time, I can help out a little more financially. So we go to the store on Saturday and ended up not getting everything we needed cause it was crowded with people. Most likely people who received their stimulus check, buying their grocery. The next day we head to another grocery store and got the rest of the groceries we need it and headed to the check out line. Am at the check out counter waiting for the cashier to finish scanning our groceries. My mom and I see the total and I say we just go half and half. She gave her half in cash and I would pay my half with my debt card. Awhile we are doing this there a young lady, maybe in her late 20 with a little boy behind us. As am about to pay my half the cashier tell me and points to the young lady saying, she wants to pay for your groceries. The cashier hands back me the cash my mom gave for her half. I tell me mom what going on and the young lady want to pay. We tell the young lady, “that not necessary, we are fine.” “We always go half and half on groceries.” She insist that she wants to pay for our groceries. From the time we got in line to check out till our interaction with the cashier, we made no actions that would give any idea that we were poor, we didn’t tell the cashier we aren’t taking these items, we didn’t have coupons or food stamps. I believe that one time someone help this young lady by paying for her grocery and now that she had enough money, she wanted to return to the favor to someone else. Who knows, but my mom and i accepted her generous offer in paying for our groceries.

Somewhere in the middle

In 3 months, I will reach 1 year working at my job. That will be and at the moment is the longest I’ve ever worked for a company. All of my previous jobs have been short term, temporary jobs. Something I’ve started to realize and maybe am just over thinking it, is where do I fit in and interact with the people(co-workers) I work with and all the other people I see daily. Am stuck in the middle between two different age group of people. Those who are young, just finish college and then those who are older, married etc. It not something that bugs me, but it something I’ve become self aware. My previous jobs, I’ve had co-workers who were older or younger. Never been stuck in between both, so now am trying to adjust. Adjusting how to act, how to speak when you are dealing with younger and older people. Having conversation and what you should and shouldn’t bring up in conversation. A conversation you might have with a younger person is not the same conversation you would have with a older person. Unless it about politics or sports etc. Well, I continue on with my job duties and observer and listen to what going around me.

Well hope all of you are doing well mentally and physically with this pandemic. Can’t believe it been 1 year already. Take Care:)

Six years of Blogging on WordPress

It was the beginning of 2015 when I started this blog, Staying the Course. I was unemployed at the time and already keeping a film photography blog. I started this blog to practice writing, to put my thoughts into words and not just keep them in my head. Also just to blog about my experience of searching for employment with little work experience. Maybe to connect with others who have similar experience in searching for employment. That goal is accomplish, am working full-time.

Fast forward till today, I have learned that I enjoy blogging.  My blog isn’t a hit when it come to followers, just about 245 followers. Just the small cyber-interaction you can have with people you never met, even if it just 2 people, who live in another state, city or on the other side of the global is satisfying. As for content and writing, am sure I could do better.  I don’t know if my writing has improve since I first started blog, but I do my best that am writing to the highest standard possible.  Re-reading what I write and re-reading it again and again before hitting the publish button.  Sometimes I wonder if am making any sense with my words, but so far no one who has visiting my blog has mention that my writing sucks or somewhere along those lines. Content, coming up with new content is a struggle sometime which am sure it is for most bloggers.  There are time I just don’t know what to write about. So far my only solution to this is writing a book review or posting my progress in drawing.

How long have you been blogging and why do you blog?

Happy Thanksgiving!!!:)

Happy Thanksgiving!!! I know not everyone celebrate this holiday, but this year with this pandemic still looming over our head, it make it extra special. I understand for some people that may not be the case. This COVID19 has taken the life of many and has made 2020 stressful.  Even though 2020 has been hard for everyone around the world, I think we can all be grateful for one thing.  I know am just grateful for being with my family and having a job.  Someone I follow on social media posted this quote awhile back that I like and I think it has meaning on this Thanksgiving day and everyday that we are fighting this pandemic.

Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day.” ~ unknown.

Looking ahead as an Adult

Next week will be 3 months(Tuesday, Sept 29, 2020) working at my full-time job that I got during this pandemic.  For the past month and a half, I’ve been thinking about what should I tackle next now that I have this full-time job. It odd cause most people my age are well into their careers, have a new car, might own a home, have a family and financial independence. Me, am still living at home and relying on my parents for a few things like getting to work.  I don’t have a car, never own one or had one. Since I was in college, I either walk and took public transportation.  Honestly, I really don’t know how to drive, even though I driven a few time, but not comfortable with it yet.  That should be my next major task, but buying a car is far out of reach even financially.

I figure my next major task I should focus on is saving money and start re-paying my student loans.  That seems the most logic thing to do.  At this point, I have zero debt except for my loans and with interest rates at zero cause of the pandemic, might as well take the advantage the situation.  At the same time, start saving money. Which should be pretty easy for me since am not a big spender.  I don’t know what I’ll use this money for, but for the mean time, I know that it will come in handy down the road.  Maybe for a down payment on a car or a chance to do some traveling when this pandemic is over.  Do you save? If so how much do you put aside from your payment?

Some of other things I been giving some thought is going back school.  At the moment I have a bachelor degree in Sociology. I figure getting another bachelor or working on a master would only take under 3 years depending on the classes I need and the classes that would transfer and count from my current bachelor degree. This is something I thought about many times, but just couldn’t do it cause I didn’t have money.

Being a Witness

As we remember and reflect on what happen 19 years ago, September 11, 2001 the United States was attacked by terrorist. I was in my 2nd year of college at UT-Austin, living in the dorms. Adjusting to a new roommate, getting into a routine for a new school year.  The world we lived in back then was different compared to what we are living in today, except that the entire world is now under attack.  Not by terrorist, but a virus, COVID19.  Just like Sept 11, am again a witness to the world changing again.

pool party I attended when I was in college.

Two major events have cause society to change their behavior.  September 11 cause us to be more aware of our surroundings.  If you saw someone or something that look suspicious, report it.  I remember the airlines were halted for a few days before resuming flights.  Increased security and additional screening at airports to assure nothing like this would happen again. Life continue on with a little fear and caution, but we were united.  We stood together, letting our difference go.  Living on campus it took time for thing to return to normal, but eventually college life went on.  Students going to class,  attending parties and social events.

Today, covid19 has been made into a political issue and has divided this country, U.S.A.  Just like Sept 11, we are having to adjust our social behaviors. Now, keeping 6ft apart, social distancing, wearing a mask, and practicing good hygiene: washing hands, covering your month etc. Unlike September 11, COVID19 has force us to limit our social interactions.  Avoid attending large crowd gatherings, schools closed and/or moving to online learning. Am sure this has to be difficult with college students today. That experience every student look forward to, socializing, going to parties, football, the classroom experience. Now having to adjust to sitting in front of a screen and not having the personal interaction with a professor or other classmate.

A time before social distancing.

Strange when you take these two events, the president in office and just compare what was going on at the time. September 11, President Bush was into his first year as president. Of course there was still that debate about recount in Florida if he actually won.  COVID19, Trump is ending his first term and running for a 2nd term.  The debate now is voter fraud and abuse with mail in ballots. Both Republican Presidents, also had space exploration event happened during their their first term in office. Bush the re-entry break-up and burning of space shuttle columbia in February 2003.  Trump, about three to four months into the pandemic, spaceX was successful launch and dock with the space station.  One constant thing that each events have in common is people’s mental well being in dealing with these stressful events.  Living on campus during Sept 11 it was college football that was the escape for a lot of students.  Today with COVID19, that isn’t the case with the messaging, avoid large social gatherings. The fear and risk that you can get this virus at any large gather. Unlike back then, thanks to technology people can talk with a professional using their iphone or tablet.  2001 that wasn’t possible yet nor was the topic of addressing mental issues. Today mental issues is talk about every day.  The importance that people seek help if dealing with depression and are stress out cause of the pandemic.

Take care where ever you may be in the world.

Where was I on September 11, 2001?

Past Journals

This past weekend I was deep cleaning my room.  Getting rid of stuff, organizing my things like art supplies, my film camera gear.  I was also getting rid of some one clothes that I stored in a storage bin that I no longer wear.  Well haven’t worn in a long, long time, so I thought its time to trash them.  I didn’t trash them, I will donate them, since they are still in good condition.

Also in the storage bin was my few my journals and sketchbooks.  I’ve been journaling for about 5 years.  Nothing interesting to read in those journals unless you find entries of struggling to find employment entertaining.  Within those entries I also did some watercolors sketches. It interesting looking threw them.  I only wish I had more to write about, but most days I don’t have nothing to write down.  Any suggest when you struggle with writer blocks?

Below is a picture of my journals.  Starting from the left side is my current journal, which I started when the pandemic began.  Going toward the right are the journals before that one.  The one on the right side, the brown one is my first journals.  All of these journals are actually sketchbooks.

Six months

September is here, Wow!!!  Just thinking that six months ago we were at the beginning of a pandemic.  A Pandemic with so many questions and even today we still don’t know the answer to some of those questions.  A pandemic that change the world and our lives.  It brought the us the words, “social distancing”, “staying 6ft apart”.

A lot has change these past six month and it still feel odd trying to comprehend what has happen.  Reminding yourself before leaving the house, do I have a mask.  The adjustments from working in the office to now working at home.  Along with now having kids doing online learning instead of actually physically going to school to learn.  Parents now having to take the role of being a teacher.

Awhile we are adjust to this new world, we can’t forget the events that are changing and having an impact in our society.  In the U.S. protest and rioting.  The launch of spaceX, sending two American astronauts to the space station. Of course we have a presidential election, so in a few months will see how this pandemic has or hasn’t influence on the outcome of the election.  I don’t know what events are going on in other countries around the world, but please feel free to share them by commenting below.