I haven’t been blogging much cause my attention has been finding employment which I haven’t found nor has any employer that I’ve submitted an application is willing to hire me. I was working with the alamo workforce in hoping I can get some job training, but after a good solid 3 months I felt they were stalling in helping me get that job training. So I terminated the partnership. At the moment I with a temp agency, but I think this partnership will also go south just cause I lack work experience.
I thought about volunteering somewhere and a week or two ago put in a application at one of the local museums. I don’t approve that people should have to volunteer just to get work experience. I’ve done volunteering in the past, but it never work out. My only reason for doing it now is that I don’t know what else to do to just get a hired. So will see what happens with volunteering.
Why do people say, “I thought I knew you” or ” I can’t believe you support X and Y.” They will continue on to describe you on how they thought you were, but really never took time to know you on a one-to-one level. I’ve had several people who I know from my college years tell me this after reading or me giving them my opinion on a political and current issues going on. In this day of age, is it fair to say, to know someone well you need to know their political views?
It interesting on how people will re-judge your character once they learn about your political view or where you stand on a certain issue. I feel am still the same person I was 10 years ago, just that I didn’t voice my opinion and no one ask about it. People have a different ways of thinking of things. Take a look at Kenya West and how people just hated on him for it. Questioning his character and that he was crazy.
One of the issues where my views differ then my friends is this whole illegal immigration and separating the parents from their children. I don’t agree with separating them, but they did break the law. In any other case where an american citizen broke the law and were being sent to jail, they too would be separated from their children. Right? I sure this applies to any other democratic nation that are governed by laws. If you are a single parent and you broke the law and going to jail, if there no other relatives to care for that child, that child is put into a foster care or a child protective agency. Am not here to debate just want to give an example.
Anyone else been through this with friends? How do you feel about it?
Am not a father, unless you count being a father to two female dogs. Their names are Lilly and Lady Bug. Am just a single guy that at the current time doesn’t see fatherhood in his future anytime soon. It does leave me to wonder what kind of father I would be. Would I been the strict dad, especially when it come to having a daughter(s). The type of the dad that will say no dating until you’re 18 and will ask all the W’s, who, where, When, What, and Why questions when the teenage daughter goes out. Will I be more a down to earth father that has that open communication with his kid. Where they can speak or ask any questions or concerns. They don’t always have to go to mom or a friend to speak about something. Just makes me wonder.
Enthusiasm, energy, I could use some advice, opinions on this subject. So let me first explain the situation. Well let me tell you a little about myself. I would describe myself as clam, down to earth individual. I don’t say much unless am talking about something am interested in. You can just say that am an introvert kind of a person.
Now I’ve been applying to jobs here and there. I’ve interviewed with this one company four time for different positions. Two of them dealt with customer service and working the phone and the others dealt with content moderation. The last interview the person who set-up the interview told me the company wouldn’t move forward with me because I have ” no energy” plus lack of customer service experience. The customer service I get, but the “no energy” am just not sure what to make about it. Have any of you ever been told or told someone that they displayed “no energy” show lack of enthusiasm?
Am not sure how to process that. Am really not a outspoken individual. I go to these job interviews, yes am nervous, but am also clam. Maybe my voice doesn’t project with high energy. It hard to try to be something that you are not.
I found this one article online that best explain my situation am in a little bit better.
Hi guys, if you are reading this is public might want to wait until you are at home. Don’t want you ending up with a red face and tears in your eyes in front of strangers or maybe co-workers.
A week ago my family had to make a tough decision. It one those decision we wish we never had to make or anyone wants to make. We decided to put our friend, family member, our dog, Sunny to sleep. His little body couldn’t go any longer. I think he know it was his time to go even though none of us wanted him to go. That day he was in his chair that placed near the window. His favorite spot and I notice him acting differently. He look lost, but was smiling, he looked happy and his eyes were just wide open. As if the angels were there with him, waiting to greet him to heaven. He was still responsive and we move him to the floor where he could lay down more comfortablely. Though out the day we notice we were losing him because he was not getting up. I believe that my other two dogs knew what was coming and said their good-byes. My sister took him to the vet that night where later in the night we got the news that there was nothing they could do for him and decided it was best to put him to sleep. It was a hard night for everyone. It was hard for me cause he was basicly my life these past 11 years. Taking care of him and my other two dogs, Lilly and Lady. Feeding him, giving him his doggy treats, his bath, check on him in the night and putting a blanket over his cold body. During the summer when it was only him, it was playing catch. During the spring and summer months you could hear him outside barking at the squirrels, looking up at the trees. Just watching him looking up at the tree hurt the back of my neck.
The next day that when it really hit me that he was gone. Outside with my other two dogs Lilly and Lady on a beautiful sunset upon us. As I watch my other dogs going about their business I was just thinking what he would be doing right now. Laying on the grass, rolling over to scratch his back. Walking around and do what ever dog do, mark their spot. I wanted to call his name, Sunny!, but knowing he wasn’t here with us anymore, hurt me. I will tell you I cried for the lost of my friend, but then I also knew he was enjoying himself in heaven. Young and with a lot of squirrels to catch and bark at.
Now am trying to move on. It a slow process because the house feel empty without him. His chair now empty with only his shed fur still on it. His bowl sitting there empty. Still haven’t clean it because it hurts that I can’t call him to come and eat. He was very picky about his food. Still have two other dogs that need my attention and I hope I can give them a great and fun doggy life.
2018, Happy New Year Bloggers and those visiting my blog. It that time to start fresh, set new goals, re-new old ones and leave the bad times behind and focus on the future ahead. You can say 2017 was a crazy time if you’ve been paying attention to the news.
For me, try to always improve on the goals I set the previous year and add something to it to make it a little challenging. I do have bigger goals, but with my current situation, I don’t list them. It would be just easier to focus my energy on those that are within reach.
1.Reading, read 12 books last year so I will make it my goal to read 20. Any suggestions on “must” read books?
2. Health is always important to me and should be for everyone. Last year my goal was just not to gain weight. Well I lost some weight,still don’t see it physically, but been told by one lady at the gym that I’ve lost weight. I will try to stay at my new current weight which is 271 lbs.
3. For 2018 one goal I would like to work on is being more social. Not easy when you are jobless and don’t have a car, but I will try to make an effort.
If you and I were sitting down somewhere having a cup of coffee or tea I would try to avoid bring up the discussion of the presidential election. It would just be a waste of energy. I would bring up how the weather has slowly change here in south Texas. The mornings are little cooler and the afternoon are just fantastic to be out-door. In two days it will be getting darker sooner, yes daylight saving time. That always a drag even though I don’t mind the extra hour of sleep. It will take a while to adjust, but the hard part is adjusting that will it will be dark before 6pm.
That means less time to get stuff done during the day. Speaking of things to do, it time to get back at job and hunting and maybe finding a holiday job. Just got finished working on a temporary project. Again no progress on the job front. Still wondering what does it take to get an opportunity to gain work experience. Well I try not to let that bring me down. Been busy these past five weeks with inktober challenge. Every day, challenging myself to drawing something using ink only. No pencil, no erasers. It been fun and enjoyable seeing all the talented artist showing their artwork on Instagram.
On the film photography side, still clicking away and have over a dozen of film rolls I need to get developed. All of them taken this year, ranging from terror expo, to siclovia, random street photography, and the girls at PETA. Hopefully will send a few rolls this week to get developed. It feels kind of weird not seeing any of the photos that I’ve taken this year. It even sad not being able to publish anything on my blog. Maybe I should turn to the dark side and get a digital camera, but then that won’t be any fun. Having to see your photo instantly instead of waiting to finish the roll of film and getting it developed. Not knowing how your photos came out and being surprise that they all came out is exciting.
I hope I can do another coffee/tea chat and won’t be a stranger. I pray that things will change for me soon and I’ll have more stuff to write about.
Now that the fall season is here, even though the weather say a different story, Starbucks now has their pumpkin spice drink. I’ve always wonder what it is that people get so happy about this drink. So, I went to Starbucks and for the first time brought me a Pumpkin spice. Now am not a Starbucks person who know all their drinks and terms, nor am I a coffee drinker.
So I go to Starbucks and tell the girl, I’ll have a pumpkin spice. Me not knowing that you can get it hot or cold so I ask what she would suggest. Well she prefer it hot, but since it was warm outside I got it cold. Waited for less than a minute or two and my drink was ready. Went to a table, sat down and got my things out of my backpack that I was going to work on awhile I tried this Pumpkin spice drink. I took a sip and immediately I could taste the pumpkin puree mixed with all the other ingredients,along with the blended ice. After taking a second slip, in my head I was thinking, “wait a minute here.” People get hype up about this when all it is are the basic ingredients for a pumpkin pie. Now I’ve make pumpkin pie from scratch before and this taste and smells exactly like the pumpkin pie mix before pouring it in the pie crust.
Well I continued on with what I was planning to do which was to do my drawing entry for Inktober. I did finish my pumpkin spice drink, which was good and got a brain freeze along with it.