Might be another jobless year

With about two months left in 2017, it beginning to feel that my goal for finding a full-time position will come up empty, again for the 8th or 9th year.  Awhile it may not be the end of the world, am running out of options of what more I can do.  I’ve altered my resume so many time, change the format, re-worded it, deleted and added things.  Nothing I do seem to make a difference.

Even interviewing, what more do they want.  If you want to know me and the kind of person who I am, hire me. Some of these questions I just don’t know how to answer, like tell me about your self? ME!, am thinking what do you want to know. Honestly I think interviewing is not my thing no matter how much I prepare. Most of my answers will be short or I don’t have an answer.  For example when they ask you a scenarios question like, tell me a time you experience a rude customer and you handle it.  To me, I just help the customer the best I could and not them ruin my day.  Am a patient person and it take a lot to set me off.

The pass two weeks I been thinking of other jobs I could apply to, but there are some factors that might keep me from applying.  I recent thought about applying for a flight attendant, but there are no airlines that are base here where I live.  I would probably I have to move to another city and/or state and I have zero money for that.  It would be great to travel since I haven’t left the state I live in.  The other job I thought about is teaching english aboard, but then you need to be certified.  The other issues is will I make enough to pay my student loans plus the cost of living in another country.



Book #9: The Stars Are Fire

The Stars Are on Fire by Anita Shreve. 24 year Grace Holland a mother of 2 kids, Tom and Claire Holland and married to Gene Holland. October 1947 Maine is swept by drought and dried vegetation.  Fire break out and Grace is left home alone with her kids awhile her husband goes help battle the fire from advancing toward the town.  Alone, Grace is force to protect her children as the fire consumes the town and homes, include hers.  Retreating toward the coastal sea is Graces only option for her and her two children from not being burned to death.  After a stressful night protecting her children Grace begin to realize her life has been change forever.  With no clothes, no home, no money and a town burn down Grace is force to provide for herself and children.  She discover a new self from this natural disaster, but unaware of the biggest challenge that lies ahead.

There a little history tied to this book.  1947 is the year the state of Maine burn to the Ground.  17, 188 acres burned, more than 10,000 acres were burned in Acadia National park.


Book #8: Swimming Lessons

Swimming Lesson by Claire Fuller is one of those books I am going to have to re-read again.  Not that I didn’t understand just felt like I might be missing something that I didn’t get when I first read it.  Reading it was interesting.  A young women Ingrid Coleman write and leave letters to her husband about how she really felt about their marriage.  She never give the letters to her husband Gil, but leaves them into between books.  Ingrid leaves her husband and her two children Nan and Flora after writing her last letter.

Several years later, Gil now old and his two daughter grown up thinks he see his wife at a bookshop. The event at the bookshop leave Gil in bed with his two daughter watching their fragile father.  Looking after their father the history of their parents marriage resurfaces.  Nan and Flora facing their own hidden lock-up emotions  about what happened to their mother.

Great book if you are into family drama and about marriage.

Drawing 2014 vs Drawing 2017

Three years ago I decided to re-learn how to draw. Just needed another hobby to keep me busy.  It had been a long time since I’ve done anything art related. High school art class was the last time I actually drew something. So I went Michaels and brought a sketch pad along with some pencils. I had decided I would just start drawing portraits since it what I still remember from high school art class.

I began drawing some popular people, first by drawing a egg like shape, then dividing it. One for the eyes, then where the nose would be and where the mouth would be. Of course my drawing were not perfect at all nor did they resemble the person I was trying to draw. At the end I just kept drawing, having done one or two good portraits drawings.

Then I started to branch out into watercolor and drawing other thing then portrait. Left my sketch pad sitting there, as I tried other sketchbooks that were smaller and I could take with me where ever I go.  I didn’t give up on drawing portraits. Still drew them, but now added some color to them. Just last month with money was getting tighter and couldn’t go buy another sketchbook so I return to that unfinished sketchpad I left sitting in my room. I thought to myself what to draw. I look through some of my first portrait drawings and decided to re-draw them.  I wanted to see how much have I improve in 3 years or haven’t improved at all.

*NOTE* Left 2014 drawing   Right 2017 drawing /// Sorry for the poor images.

Russel Crowe Gladiator: Left 2014 Right 2017
Jennifer Lawrence: left 2014. Right 2017

Urban sketching:San Antonio, Texas

I’ve decided to explore the world of urban sketching. Urban Sketching is drawing from direct observation whether it be outdoors or indoors. You can do this at your current location where you live or if you are traveling. Seeing Peoples sketches on instagram it looks very interesting to try. I haven’t done that many sketches, but so far I’ve like what I have done with some of the challenges am facing. One of those challenges is being able to fit what am sketching on a small piece of paper.  Should I sketch it horizontal or vertical on the paper? Also trying to get as much detail into the sketch, and then painting it with watercolors.  My other challenge is quickly drawing people who may be in the area and are constantly in motion. Hopefully something I can semi-master quickly, but in the mean time I just take a photo and use that as a reference to sketch people in.

Daily Prompt: Overcome


If you visited my blog before you know am struggling to find full-time employment for a long time.  Won’t go into details, but I will say that lacking experience is probably why I can’t find employment.  I think that while most employers are looking for experience workers they don’t understand that for a person to overcome that lack of experience they need to do whatever they are lacking of. They need to be in front lines being expose to that environment.  If a employer is not willing to take a chance to expose them to that environment, then who(employers) will.

We are born into this world with “zero” experience of everything.  Social skills, communication skills, everything.  It is only through the process of learning and being involved that we overcome to learn these things.  I, myself have overcome a lot of things I didn’t know only by actual learning and making mistakes. It through this process we personally learn if we enjoy these thing or not. It through this process that a shy individual break their shell.  Why shouldn’t this also applying when someone is lacking work experience? What is that employers or the person interviewing you assume that you don’t fit the culture or that this isn’t the position for you just because you lack experience?

Daily Prompt: Finite


As a amateur photographer I enjoying shooting with film camera then digital camera.  Shooting with a film camera you are restricted to a finite number of shots.  That forces you to think what you really what to photograph and if it worth photographing.  Unlike digital cameras, where you can shoot a limited number of photographs until your memory card is filled. Having that finite number of shots put you in a mind-set that I need to make every roll of 24 or 36 film count.  One you press down on the shutter release button, you can’t view your photograph until you done with the roll of film and developed it, and you can’t delete it.

Daily Prompt: Critical


Things have been intense when it come to the political sphere and the social issues the plague us today. Racism, social injustice, presidential election etc.  Have you ever just wonder when and where was that critical point in time that lead us to where we are today?  Where you can be label a racist, bigot for not having the same views? Where your choice of a presidential candidate can lead to friends and people hating you, and be label a racist, bigot. Where individuals or group of individual will resort to violence cause their views don’t agree with other. We can go on and on, but can we pin point the critical point that lead us to where we are?  Maybe it wasn’t just a certain point in time, but an interaction of several things.  The rapid growth of technology in our life may be a contributor.  The Internet, social media, cell phones, and instant gratification of having information right at our finger tips.  People no longer having the time to process the information they are receiving nor debate within themselves what they heard from the media. Just as quickly they have receive the information, they quickly what to respond and demand action.

Book #7:Alice & the Assassin

I really enjoying reading R.J. Koreto books. This is my 3rd book that I’ve read by him.  Alice and the Assassin, President Teddy Roosevelt’s is now President after that assassination of President William McKinley.  Roosevelts and his family are now under Secret Service protection.  His daughter, 17 years old Alice Roosevelt is protected by agent Joseph St.Clair a former cowboy and veteran of the Rough Riders.

Alice take it upon her self to start investigating the recent killing of President McKinley.  Asking questions and requesting to speak with potential suspects with whom had contact with the assassin. Her interest in the matter raises suspicion among someone or a group of people.  With so many unanswered question Alice fear for her Father life. With her secret Service bodyguard they travel through New York to find those who seek power, money and will kill for it.

Hitting a Brick wall

As we approach the end August, my job search has met nothing but brick walls. I go this direction, I hit a brick wall. Switch direction and hit another wall. I feel like a rat that can’t get out of a maze. Doesn’t matter where I apply, I can’t get anything to fall my way. Most of my recent applications have been to retail such as Petco, michaels, hobby lobby, chipotle, walmart.  I applied to 6 different chipotle locations and only got two interviews.  I applied to three michaels location and got one interview.  I also applied to 3 to 5 petco locations and got 1 interview.  I do not understand what more I could do.  At my interview at michaels, the girl that interview me gave me her own personality evaluation to see how I would fit in.  It was another way to see if I would be a employee that she would need to train and if my personality would be a difficult one to work with.  I’ve also been applying to position within the city, but nothing there.  One of those position is working at the public library.  You think that would be a straight forward position as long as you enjoying working with public.  Right?  Seem I don’t meet the qualifications for that.