It been awhile since I last posted about a book I read. The libraries here are still closed to the public due to covid19. You can still do curb side pick up, but it doesn’t feel the same. So I went to Barns and noble and brought the the book A Man Called Ove by Fredrik Backman. A Man Called Ove is about living. That life doesn’t stop when you loose your love one. You got to keep on living, evening though your dealing with your grief. Reading Ove, I though of the movie Gran Trio with Clint Eastwood. I don’t why, but that pop in my head awhile reading the book.
It was six years ago I decided to start teaching myself how drawing. I went to Michael’s and brought my first sketchbook along with some other supplies just to experiment for fun. The last time I was serious about art was in high school. Remembering what I learned from high school I used that information as my starting point. Drawing a oval like egg shape and dividing the shape on where the eyes would go, the nose and the month. My drawing weren’t that great, but I could only get better with practice.
Now at the beginning of August 2020, I started my 3rd sketchbook where I just draw portraits. Looking over my drawing I can see that my drawing are closely resembling the actual person in the photo reference I use. Practice, even though this is just my 3rd sketchbook where I focus on drawing portrait, I’ve also practiced drawing them in my journals including add watercolor. I still have much to improve and learn. Learning on your own has it challenges, but it also make it fun.
Next week will be 3 months(Tuesday, Sept 29, 2020) working at my full-time job that I got during this pandemic. For the past month and a half, I’ve been thinking about what should I tackle next now that I have this full-time job. It odd cause most people my age are well into their careers, have a new car, might own a home, have a family and financial independence. Me, am still living at home and relying on my parents for a few things like getting to work. I don’t have a car, never own one or had one. Since I was in college, I either walk and took public transportation. Honestly, I really don’t know how to drive, even though I driven a few time, but not comfortable with it yet. That should be my next major task, but buying a car is far out of reach even financially.
I figure my next major task I should focus on is saving money and start re-paying my student loans. That seems the most logic thing to do. At this point, I have zero debt except for my loans and with interest rates at zero cause of the pandemic, might as well take the advantage the situation. At the same time, start saving money. Which should be pretty easy for me since am not a big spender. I don’t know what I’ll use this money for, but for the mean time, I know that it will come in handy down the road. Maybe for a down payment on a car or a chance to do some traveling when this pandemic is over. Do you save? If so how much do you put aside from your payment?
Some of other things I been giving some thought is going back school. At the moment I have a bachelor degree in Sociology. I figure getting another bachelor or working on a master would only take under 3 years depending on the classes I need and the classes that would transfer and count from my current bachelor degree. This is something I thought about many times, but just couldn’t do it cause I didn’t have money.
As we remember and reflect on what happen 19 years ago, September 11, 2001 the United States was attacked by terrorist. I was in my 2nd year of college at UT-Austin, living in the dorms. Adjusting to a new roommate, getting into a routine for a new school year. The world we lived in back then was different compared to what we are living in today, except that the entire world is now under attack. Not by terrorist, but a virus, COVID19. Just like Sept 11, am again a witness to the world changing again.
Two major events have cause society to change their behavior. September 11 cause us to be more aware of our surroundings. If you saw someone or something that look suspicious, report it. I remember the airlines were halted for a few days before resuming flights. Increased security and additional screening at airports to assure nothing like this would happen again. Life continue on with a little fear and caution, but we were united. We stood together, letting our difference go. Living on campus it took time for thing to return to normal, but eventually college life went on. Students going to class, attending parties and social events.
Today, covid19 has been made into a political issue and has divided this country, U.S.A. Just like Sept 11, we are having to adjust our social behaviors. Now, keeping 6ft apart, social distancing, wearing a mask, and practicing good hygiene: washing hands, covering your month etc. Unlike September 11, COVID19 has force us to limit our social interactions. Avoid attending large crowd gatherings, schools closed and/or moving to online learning. Am sure this has to be difficult with college students today. That experience every student look forward to, socializing, going to parties, football, the classroom experience. Now having to adjust to sitting in front of a screen and not having the personal interaction with a professor or other classmate.
Strange when you take these two events, the president in office and just compare what was going on at the time. September 11, President Bush was into his first year as president. Of course there was still that debate about recount in Florida if he actually won. COVID19, Trump is ending his first term and running for a 2nd term. The debate now is voter fraud and abuse with mail in ballots. Both Republican Presidents, also had space exploration event happened during their their first term in office. Bush the re-entry break-up and burning of space shuttle columbia in February 2003. Trump, about three to four months into the pandemic, spaceX was successful launch and dock with the space station. One constant thing that each events have in common is people’s mental well being in dealing with these stressful events. Living on campus during Sept 11 it was college football that was the escape for a lot of students. Today with COVID19, that isn’t the case with the messaging, avoid large social gatherings. The fear and risk that you can get this virus at any large gather. Unlike back then, thanks to technology people can talk with a professional using their iphone or tablet. 2001 that wasn’t possible yet nor was the topic of addressing mental issues. Today mental issues is talk about every day. The importance that people seek help if dealing with depression and are stress out cause of the pandemic.
Take care where ever you may be in the world.
Where was I on September 11, 2001?
This past weekend I was deep cleaning my room. Getting rid of stuff, organizing my things like art supplies, my film camera gear. I was also getting rid of some one clothes that I stored in a storage bin that I no longer wear. Well haven’t worn in a long, long time, so I thought its time to trash them. I didn’t trash them, I will donate them, since they are still in good condition.
Also in the storage bin was my few my journals and sketchbooks. I’ve been journaling for about 5 years. Nothing interesting to read in those journals unless you find entries of struggling to find employment entertaining. Within those entries I also did some watercolors sketches. It interesting looking threw them. I only wish I had more to write about, but most days I don’t have nothing to write down. Any suggest when you struggle with writer blocks?
Below is a picture of my journals. Starting from the left side is my current journal, which I started when the pandemic began. Going toward the right are the journals before that one. The one on the right side, the brown one is my first journals. All of these journals are actually sketchbooks.
September is here, Wow!!! Just thinking that six months ago we were at the beginning of a pandemic. A Pandemic with so many questions and even today we still don’t know the answer to some of those questions. A pandemic that change the world and our lives. It brought the us the words, “social distancing”, “staying 6ft apart”.
A lot has change these past six month and it still feel odd trying to comprehend what has happen. Reminding yourself before leaving the house, do I have a mask. The adjustments from working in the office to now working at home. Along with now having kids doing online learning instead of actually physically going to school to learn. Parents now having to take the role of being a teacher.
Awhile we are adjust to this new world, we can’t forget the events that are changing and having an impact in our society. In the U.S. protest and rioting. The launch of spaceX, sending two American astronauts to the space station. Of course we have a presidential election, so in a few months will see how this pandemic has or hasn’t influence on the outcome of the election. I don’t know what events are going on in other countries around the world, but please feel free to share them by commenting below.
Yes, that picture is of me. Wearing a mask awhile at work. Each morning before I leave the house to work, I grab a mask and make sure that I have a back-up just in case. Its required that you have a mask on before entering the building and that awhile you are walking in the building or are in the elevator. Through out my day, I see employees wearing their mask as they walk within the office. When they are at their desk, they take off their mask, which I think is okay.
For me, I wear my mask all day with the exception when I am eating(lunch) or drinking bottle water at my desk. Maybe am being overly caustiously wearing my mask all day, but might as well be safe then sorry. Beside, my desk is just a small enclose cubical that is near a walk way where people are passing by. Now I will admit wearing a mask is a pain in the butt and through out the day I struggle with my mask. Now I don’t have tell you the struggle we people who wear glasses go through having to wear a mask. Every time your exhale, your breath will fog your glasses for a few seconds. Not a good thing when you are either walking or relay on your glasses for reading. I for one don’t need my glasses for reading, but I do have them on the majority of the day.
I don’t know about you, but there are time when am constantly having to adjust my mask because of my glasses or because of the mask itself. I am sitting at my desk, working and I feel my mask moving up toward my eyes. In a few second the mask is just right below my eye and I can’t see. For some odd reason it some how slip under neath the nose paddling of my glasses. Causing my glasses now to fall down awhile my mask is going up towards my eyes. They say don’t touch your face or your eyes, but I have no choice to adjust my mask with my arm. Trying to slide it down but in a few minutes I feel it going up towards my eyes again.
In a previous post, I blog about that I found a full-time job during the pandemic crises the world is going though. At the same time several cities in the United States were seeing an increase in covid19 cases, even here at home. What a way to enter the work force? Well, am glad to say that it been one whole month now since I started working. So far it going well and am still in training. Basically I am reviewing, scanning and entering employees information into the system. I go through these applications, checking to see all paper work has been submitted, information is correct and signatures are signed. If I spot something that missing or incorrect, I send it back for it to get corrected. It pretty straight forward, but of course there are procedures to follow.
As for the work environment it pretty laid back given that the majority of the employees are working from home. I along with other employee are required to work from the office since we dealing with sensitive information. Of course everyone is following health guide lines and wearing a mask when they enter the building, walking in the hall ways or can’t keep a social distance between other employees. For me I keep my mask on all day even through it a pain in the butt. I explain that in another post. From the time I walk into the building, sitting down at my desk and taking a break and when I leave, I have my mask on. Also I keep in a small backpack, a small bottle of hand sanitizer, a small pack of hand wipes and two extra pair of mask just in case my mask fall on the floor or breaks.
Isn’t it strange, we are already past half way through 2020. Well where ever you are in the world I hope you are doing well.
I don’t know if there a difference between anxiety and fear or are they both the same. The definition of anxiety if you google it is
“a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.”
The definition of fear if you google it is,
“an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.”
In the mist of the COVID-19 am sure all of us are feeling one or the other. Maybe both. Then how can you tell you the difference of what you are feeling, anxiety or fear. To tell you the truth I don’t know and I know am dealing with one of those at the moment. It nothing serious, but does bug me every now and then. It concerning that I unknowingly could be carry this virus and may pass it along to family members who are the most vulnerable to this virus. My parents, would be the most vulnerable cause they are older and I still live with them. Of course other family member are also vulnerable, but from what we know about this virus, younger people are more likely to recover from this virus. It one of those things you don’t want to live with that you/ I cause a family member to get sick and die from this virus. It one of the reason why I haven’t gone to the gym or have gone out in public. The only time I go out is if I need like doctor appointment or grocery shopping. It just a small sacrifice plus wearing a mask when am I work and when I need to be in public.
I hope everyone is doing well and hopefully can related to what I am saying. Where ever you are in world, take care:)
Last week I started working at my new job, Full-time Job!!:) I never thought I was going to find a job with all this craziness we have going on with COVID-19. I thought with COVID-19, companies were going to hold off hiring since some of them moved to working from home and have postpone their hiring. My first day was two Mondays ago and like any other job my first day was just completing paper work, making sure I understood company polices and all that other stuff. That was basically my whole first day and at the same time the state and city are seeing a spike in COVID-19 cases. Which made this a strange first day at work, since I needed to wear a mask awhile I was in the building and completing all these necessary first day on the job task. Usually your first day of work is meeting face-to-face, but this time to keep the social distancing everything was done on Zoom as I was in one room and the HR personal was in another.
After my first day, I met the people I would be working with and the person who would be training me. My duties and the job I would be doing is pretty straight forward. The only thing are the small little details and rules you must remember and follow. Since my job is dealing with confidential documents and information I need to make sure I follow procedures and that these documents are filled out correctly. I pretty sure I will be doing a lot of on the job training before I start doing things on my own which is cool with me.
If there any right now that am concerned about this job is getting this COVID19. Since this is a office setting environment and everyone is required to wear a mask, am hoping that enough for not catching this COVID-19. As of now they have the majority of the people working from home, but when they return, that mean a lot more people in this office space. Which is scary cause, most office building are not well ventilated.