The journey isn’t over yet, even as we soon to welcome in a new year, but hopefully 2021 isn’t as depressing and rough as 2020. As we approach the last few days of 2020, many of us will be reflecting on this journey that we’ve all been experiencing, the pandemic. Its been a tough journey for everyone and it will be one that will never be forgotten. Who would have thought that we would be able to say that we lived threw a pandemic and add it to our life resume experience.
Since the beginning of the year I’ve not only been blogging about this pandemic and my personal experience like many bloggers around the world, but I’ve also been keeping a journal. Writing and sketching. It something that has kept me mentally focus since this whole pandemic started and we entered a world of social distancing and wearing a mask. Looking threw my journal entries, am still unsure how to process and reflect what has happen these past 9 months. Am still unsure how this pandemic has effected me, personally. Has it change me? Have I grown? Is that kind of strange? Maybe two years from now, I know, but am sure re-reading my journal entries and my blog posting will be interesting. From the beginning of the pandemic when I was looking for a job, when the world was hoarding and looking for toilet paper, my birthday, finding a job was possible during a pandemic to the present day.
Where ever you may be reading this post, I hope you are well. Please, seek help if you are struggle during these tough time.
It been awhile since I last posted about a book I read. The libraries here are still closed to the public due to covid19. You can still do curb side pick up, but it doesn’t feel the same. So I went to Barns and noble and brought the the book A Man Called Ove by Fredrik Backman. A Man Called Ove is about living. That life doesn’t stop when you loose your love one. You got to keep on living, evening though your dealing with your grief. Reading Ove, I though of the movie Gran Trio with Clint Eastwood. I don’t why, but that pop in my head awhile reading the book.
Next week will be 3 months(Tuesday, Sept 29, 2020) working at my full-time job that I got during this pandemic. For the past month and a half, I’ve been thinking about what should I tackle next now that I have this full-time job. It odd cause most people my age are well into their careers, have a new car, might own a home, have a family and financial independence. Me, am still living at home and relying on my parents for a few things like getting to work. I don’t have a car, never own one or had one. Since I was in college, I either walk and took public transportation. Honestly, I really don’t know how to drive, even though I driven a few time, but not comfortable with it yet. That should be my next major task, but buying a car is far out of reach even financially.
I figure my next major task I should focus on is saving money and start re-paying my student loans. That seems the most logic thing to do. At this point, I have zero debt except for my loans and with interest rates at zero cause of the pandemic, might as well take the advantage the situation. At the same time, start saving money. Which should be pretty easy for me since am not a big spender. I don’t know what I’ll use this money for, but for the mean time, I know that it will come in handy down the road. Maybe for a down payment on a car or a chance to do some traveling when this pandemic is over. Do you save? If so how much do you put aside from your payment?
Some of other things I been giving some thought is going back school. At the moment I have a bachelor degree in Sociology. I figure getting another bachelor or working on a master would only take under 3 years depending on the classes I need and the classes that would transfer and count from my current bachelor degree. This is something I thought about many times, but just couldn’t do it cause I didn’t have money.
As we remember and reflect on what happen 19 years ago, September 11, 2001 the United States was attacked by terrorist. I was in my 2nd year of college at UT-Austin, living in the dorms. Adjusting to a new roommate, getting into a routine for a new school year. The world we lived in back then was different compared to what we are living in today, except that the entire world is now under attack. Not by terrorist, but a virus, COVID19. Just like Sept 11, am again a witness to the world changing again.
Two major events have cause society to change their behavior. September 11 cause us to be more aware of our surroundings. If you saw someone or something that look suspicious, report it. I remember the airlines were halted for a few days before resuming flights. Increased security and additional screening at airports to assure nothing like this would happen again. Life continue on with a little fear and caution, but we were united. We stood together, letting our difference go. Living on campus it took time for thing to return to normal, but eventually college life went on. Students going to class, attending parties and social events.
Today, covid19 has been made into a political issue and has divided this country, U.S.A. Just like Sept 11, we are having to adjust our social behaviors. Now, keeping 6ft apart, social distancing, wearing a mask, and practicing good hygiene: washing hands, covering your month etc. Unlike September 11, COVID19 has force us to limit our social interactions. Avoid attending large crowd gatherings, schools closed and/or moving to online learning. Am sure this has to be difficult with college students today. That experience every student look forward to, socializing, going to parties, football, the classroom experience. Now having to adjust to sitting in front of a screen and not having the personal interaction with a professor or other classmate.
Strange when you take these two events, the president in office and just compare what was going on at the time. September 11, President Bush was into his first year as president. Of course there was still that debate about recount in Florida if he actually won. COVID19, Trump is ending his first term and running for a 2nd term. The debate now is voter fraud and abuse with mail in ballots. Both Republican Presidents, also had space exploration event happened during their their first term in office. Bush the re-entry break-up and burning of space shuttle columbia in February 2003. Trump, about three to four months into the pandemic, spaceX was successful launch and dock with the space station. One constant thing that each events have in common is people’s mental well being in dealing with these stressful events. Living on campus during Sept 11 it was college football that was the escape for a lot of students. Today with COVID19, that isn’t the case with the messaging, avoid large social gatherings. The fear and risk that you can get this virus at any large gather. Unlike back then, thanks to technology people can talk with a professional using their iphone or tablet. 2001 that wasn’t possible yet nor was the topic of addressing mental issues. Today mental issues is talk about every day. The importance that people seek help if dealing with depression and are stress out cause of the pandemic.
September is here, Wow!!! Just thinking that six months ago we were at the beginning of a pandemic. A Pandemic with so many questions and even today we still don’t know the answer to some of those questions. A pandemic that change the world and our lives. It brought the us the words, “social distancing”, “staying 6ft apart”.
A lot has change these past six month and it still feel odd trying to comprehend what has happen. Reminding yourself before leaving the house, do I have a mask. The adjustments from working in the office to now working at home. Along with now having kids doing online learning instead of actually physically going to school to learn. Parents now having to take the role of being a teacher.
Awhile we are adjust to this new world, we can’t forget the events that are changing and having an impact in our society. In the U.S. protest and rioting. The launch of spaceX, sending two American astronauts to the space station. Of course we have a presidential election, so in a few months will see how this pandemic has or hasn’t influence on the outcome of the election. I don’t know what events are going on in other countries around the world, but please feel free to share them by commenting below.
Grateful, I would first say, Thank You WordPress and their staff for setting these prompts up. I will say this is my first time where I have written / type for 29 days straight. I didn’t do the first day prompt, Joke. It strange how someone can give you a prompt to write about and you write. Then when those prompts aren’t given to you, writer blocks kicks in.
In these challenging times, I would say that am grateful that am well and my family is well. We were mourning the passing of a family member that last week of February and then this COVID-19 just swept in. Am just thankful that everyone in the family was able to deal with each other awhile sheltering-in-place. That not a easy thing to adjust to. For me lucky I lived in the dorms for 3 years and then lived in apartment with people I didn’t know. So I’ve kind knew how to adjust myself.
To all the bloggers out in the world reading this, posting about their own experience with this COVID-19, life, or just blogging to keep your mind occupied, hope all is well and you are safe.
Listen, if you learn nothing else when you’re here you learn this, alright? Coz it’s not just about hockey.
It’s easy to be confident when you have control of the puck. It’s very, very difficult to keep that confidence when you gotta take whatever strange bounces life throws your way.
Don’t be careless but don’t be too careful either. You cannot be afraid to lose.
That’s how you gain the confidence to attack the game when the puck isn’t yours. That’s how you attack life, even when you don’t think you have any control.
And that’s how you play real defense.
Here I am, a year older and maybe wiser. Well I really don’t know about the wiser part, since no one ever listens to me. As for being a year old, that really doesn’t bug me. What bugs me is not being where I want to be in life. When am sitting down, or out on one of my walks, I think, “is it me and that why am not where I want to be in life?” Am I being lazy or is that the impression people get when hearing I can’t find a job. Why am I struggling so much with finding a job? I look at myself in the mirror and just thinking, what is it that I am not seeing, but other people do? Am I just not presentable and my personality just turns off people? Just this past weekend I had a job interviewer and she said something that I’ve heard before. Except she was a little more specific. Hearing that, I thought, I can’t change that. She said she like everything about me, but I wasn’t loud enough. I didn’t response to her comment, but I can’t help if my voice doesn’t sound loud. I was born with low tone voice and probably one that doesn’t reverberate. I still don’t know if I got the job or not but it leaves me wondering.