May 1, 2021

May 1, 2021, just strange that we are already in the month of May.  Even stranger is a year ago the month of May was different then it is today.   Last year, around this time we were still reacting to this pandemic. Society was shutting down.  We still didn’t know what we were dealing with or how to treat it.   Reflecting back, I felt that we would never move forward.  Time was at a stand still and we would still be trying to figure out how to defect this virus.  Today society is moving out of this dark cloud that hover over us for awhile.  With the development of these vaccine, society is returning to normal. Kids are returning to school, there a lot more traffic as people begin to eat out and move about.  In other parts of the globe, people are still facing death that this virus brings.  Cities and town are still in lock downs. Hopefully the rest of world will start sending resources in helping those countries, cities and towns this virus still has a tight grip on.

Working 8 months during a pandemic

At the end of February, I will reach my 8th month working at my job during this pandemic. It been an interesting ride working during this pandemic. Having to wear face mask awhile am in the building or having to walk through the office to talk with co-workers or other people in other departments. There are still a lot of people I haven’t met since the company has people working from home, but they have hired several new people who are working from the office. Lunch is an interesting time since the break room has 9 tables, but only one chair for each table. The company is follow the guide lines of social distancing, so now during lunch the few who eat there look as if their in a detention class. Most people eat at their desk which I don’t know how people can do that. I just need to get away from my work and enjoy my lunch. Just able to walk and stretch a little and not seeing all the work I still need to do. Speaking of my work, I handle a lot of paper work that I review, make small correction if needed, review the information on the data base that it matches what on the paper. If something is incorrect on the database I correct. Then I scan it, and enter into another data base where I also review the information previous entered. In addition, I enter in other information. There are certain paper work that I can’t correct for example, forgotten signatures or wrong person signed or incorrect/unreadable personal information, that where I have to send the paper work back to the department who worked on it and communicated with the client who filled it out. That basically my day and every now and then I be ask to do something different. It kind of boring, but for now it a job and until the job market pick-up I’ll be there for awhile.

Happy New Year!!! 2021

Happy New Year!!! I hope you all celebrated welcoming in 2021 safety and with close family members. Hopefully 2021 bring us much more happier and social time that we all have been deprived of this past year with the pandemic.

2021 Goals

Personally I hope to get back to reading a little more. Didn’t do to much of that in 2020.  Any suggestion on books to read?  Trying to stay healthy and workout more.  With work, I only have time to go to the gym on the weekend. Am trying to get myself in  routine  working out here at home.  Already brought me one set of weights and just need to get a work out matt. I did gain a little weight during 2020 cause of the pandemic. Career wise, well am still working at the job I started in late June 2020.  I’ll be doing a separate post on this and giving an update on how that being going. I really hope 2021, I can do some traveling. Traveling has been something on my bucket list. I haven’t left the state that I live in nor the country.  The one thing that holds me back is money.  I don’t know how people travel so much and able to afford it.  Now that I working, am also saving, so when that time comes, I hope I can visit another state before taking the leap to travel to another country.

Merry Christmas!!

To everyone in all corners of the world, Merry Christmas!!!  I hope that today on this holiday season we enjoy the company of those we share the same roof with.  For many years in my family since I was little, it is and still is a tradition to go to my grandmother home to have a Christmas dinner and open present with the rest of my cousin. The Christmas dinner is the traditional mexican food, tamales, rice and beans and ham.  Top it off with dessert, my grandmother top secret cake.  It the one thing everyone looks forward to eating since this is the only time of year she make it.

With COVID-19 this will be the first year she will not be having this Christmas dinner. It kind of sad, but it better safe then sorry.  Having everyone safe and not someone or everyone getting sick.  I always have a positive feeling when going and seeing my cousins and the next generation in the family. Kids running around, a smile on their face opening presents.  Seeing that, takes me back when my cousins and I were doing the exact same thing so00000000 many years ago.  Sitting on the exact same floor, running through the hallways, eating at the exact same table in the same room. I will and willing to wait until next year to continue on with this family tradition.

Reflecting last few days of 2020

 

The journey isn’t over yet, even as we soon to welcome in a new year, but hopefully 2021 isn’t as depressing and rough as 2020. As we approach the last few days of 2020, many of us will be reflecting on this journey that we’ve all been experiencing, the pandemic. Its been a tough journey for everyone and it will be one that will never be forgotten. Who would have thought that we would be able to say that we lived threw a pandemic and add it to our life resume experience. 

Since the beginning of the year I’ve not only been blogging about this pandemic and my personal experience like many bloggers around the world, but I’ve also been keeping a journal. Writing and sketching. It something that has kept me mentally focus since this whole pandemic started and we entered a world of social distancing and wearing a mask. Looking threw my journal entries, am still unsure how to process and reflect what has happen these past 9 months. Am still unsure how this pandemic has effected me, personally. Has it change me? Have I grown? Is that kind of strange? Maybe two years from now, I know, but am sure re-reading my journal entries and my blog posting will be interesting. From the beginning of the pandemic when I was looking for a job, when the world was hoarding and looking for toilet paper, my birthday, finding a job was possible during a pandemic to the present day.

Where ever you may be reading this post, I hope you are well.  Please, seek help if you are struggle during these tough time.

Happy Thanksgiving!!!:)

Happy Thanksgiving!!! I know not everyone celebrate this holiday, but this year with this pandemic still looming over our head, it make it extra special. I understand for some people that may not be the case. This COVID19 has taken the life of many and has made 2020 stressful.  Even though 2020 has been hard for everyone around the world, I think we can all be grateful for one thing.  I know am just grateful for being with my family and having a job.  Someone I follow on social media posted this quote awhile back that I like and I think it has meaning on this Thanksgiving day and everyday that we are fighting this pandemic.

Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day.” ~ unknown.

Being a Witness

As we remember and reflect on what happen 19 years ago, September 11, 2001 the United States was attacked by terrorist. I was in my 2nd year of college at UT-Austin, living in the dorms. Adjusting to a new roommate, getting into a routine for a new school year.  The world we lived in back then was different compared to what we are living in today, except that the entire world is now under attack.  Not by terrorist, but a virus, COVID19.  Just like Sept 11, am again a witness to the world changing again.

pool party I attended when I was in college.

Two major events have cause society to change their behavior.  September 11 cause us to be more aware of our surroundings.  If you saw someone or something that look suspicious, report it.  I remember the airlines were halted for a few days before resuming flights.  Increased security and additional screening at airports to assure nothing like this would happen again. Life continue on with a little fear and caution, but we were united.  We stood together, letting our difference go.  Living on campus it took time for thing to return to normal, but eventually college life went on.  Students going to class,  attending parties and social events.

Today, covid19 has been made into a political issue and has divided this country, U.S.A.  Just like Sept 11, we are having to adjust our social behaviors. Now, keeping 6ft apart, social distancing, wearing a mask, and practicing good hygiene: washing hands, covering your month etc. Unlike September 11, COVID19 has force us to limit our social interactions.  Avoid attending large crowd gatherings, schools closed and/or moving to online learning. Am sure this has to be difficult with college students today. That experience every student look forward to, socializing, going to parties, football, the classroom experience. Now having to adjust to sitting in front of a screen and not having the personal interaction with a professor or other classmate.

A time before social distancing.

Strange when you take these two events, the president in office and just compare what was going on at the time. September 11, President Bush was into his first year as president. Of course there was still that debate about recount in Florida if he actually won.  COVID19, Trump is ending his first term and running for a 2nd term.  The debate now is voter fraud and abuse with mail in ballots. Both Republican Presidents, also had space exploration event happened during their their first term in office. Bush the re-entry break-up and burning of space shuttle columbia in February 2003.  Trump, about three to four months into the pandemic, spaceX was successful launch and dock with the space station.  One constant thing that each events have in common is people’s mental well being in dealing with these stressful events.  Living on campus during Sept 11 it was college football that was the escape for a lot of students.  Today with COVID19, that isn’t the case with the messaging, avoid large social gatherings. The fear and risk that you can get this virus at any large gather. Unlike back then, thanks to technology people can talk with a professional using their iphone or tablet.  2001 that wasn’t possible yet nor was the topic of addressing mental issues. Today mental issues is talk about every day.  The importance that people seek help if dealing with depression and are stress out cause of the pandemic.

Take care where ever you may be in the world.

Where was I on September 11, 2001?

Six months

September is here, Wow!!!  Just thinking that six months ago we were at the beginning of a pandemic.  A Pandemic with so many questions and even today we still don’t know the answer to some of those questions.  A pandemic that change the world and our lives.  It brought the us the words, “social distancing”, “staying 6ft apart”.

A lot has change these past six month and it still feel odd trying to comprehend what has happen.  Reminding yourself before leaving the house, do I have a mask.  The adjustments from working in the office to now working at home.  Along with now having kids doing online learning instead of actually physically going to school to learn.  Parents now having to take the role of being a teacher.

Awhile we are adjust to this new world, we can’t forget the events that are changing and having an impact in our society.  In the U.S. protest and rioting.  The launch of spaceX, sending two American astronauts to the space station. Of course we have a presidential election, so in a few months will see how this pandemic has or hasn’t influence on the outcome of the election.  I don’t know what events are going on in other countries around the world, but please feel free to share them by commenting below.

A mask problem

Yes, that picture is of me. Wearing a mask awhile at work. Each morning before I leave the house to work, I grab a mask and make sure that I have a back-up just in case. Its required that you have a mask on before entering the building and that awhile you are walking in the building or are in the elevator. Through out my day, I see employees wearing their mask as they walk within the office. When they are at their desk, they take off their mask, which I think is okay.

For me, I wear my mask all day with the exception when I am eating(lunch) or drinking bottle water at my desk. Maybe am being overly caustiously wearing my mask all day, but might as well be safe then sorry. Beside, my desk is just a small enclose cubical that is near a walk way where people are passing by. Now I will admit wearing a mask is a pain in the butt and through out the day I struggle with my mask. Now I don’t have tell you the struggle we people who wear glasses go through having to wear a mask. Every time your exhale, your breath will fog your glasses for a few seconds. Not a good thing when you are either walking or relay on your glasses for reading. I for one don’t need my glasses for reading, but I do have them on the majority of the day.

I don’t know about you, but there are time when am constantly having to adjust my mask because of my glasses or because of the mask itself. I am sitting at my desk, working and I feel my mask moving up toward my eyes. In a few second the mask is just right below my eye and I can’t see. For some odd reason it some how slip under neath the nose paddling of my glasses. Causing my glasses now to fall down awhile my mask is going up towards my eyes. They say don’t touch your face or your eyes, but I have no choice to adjust my mask with my arm. Trying to slide it down but in a few minutes I feel it going up towards my eyes again.

 

 

Anxiety or Fear

I don’t know if there a difference between anxiety and fear or are they both the same. The definition of anxiety if you google it is

“a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.”

The definition of fear if you google it is,

“an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.”

In the mist of the COVID-19 am sure all of us are feeling one or the other. Maybe both. Then how can you tell you the difference of what you are feeling, anxiety or fear. To tell you the truth I don’t know and I know am dealing with one of those at the moment. It nothing serious, but does bug me every now and then. It concerning that I unknowingly could be carry this virus and may pass it along to family members who are the most vulnerable to this virus. My parents, would be the most vulnerable cause they are older and I still live with them. Of course other family member are also vulnerable, but from what we know about this virus, younger people are more likely to recover from this virus. It one of those things you don’t want to live with that you/ I cause a family member to get sick and die from this virus. It one of the reason why I haven’t gone to the gym or have gone out in public. The only time I go out is if I need like doctor appointment or grocery shopping. It just a small sacrifice plus wearing a mask when am I work and when I need to be in public.

I hope everyone is doing well and hopefully can related to what I am saying. Where ever you are in world, take care:)